I’ll admit it.
I’m overwhelmed these days.
I feel that I am a Jane of all trades and a Master of none.
I work hard all day ensuring that I am the best teacher I can be, and then I come home to be the best girlfriend I can be while also maintaining blogs, an online professional life, working to start up a food co-op and maintaining priceless face to face friendships.
When I log onto Twitter and Facebook these days (it’s been less and less recently) I notice the same names and handles scrolling by and I wish that I had time to be so connected, to devote so much time to sitting in front of the computer.
How’d I get here?
Part of it’s my own fault–I can’t say “no”–and part of it is because I crave dialogue and love learning new things.
However, is it worth barely talking to your loved one for hours at a time while sitting mere feet from each other?
Can it replace a drink with an old friend or a night hanging out with the ladies?
Is it more important than getting to know my community and becoming involved in local issues that directly affect me?
I’m starting to think not.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not giving up entirely, but I will need to make a list in the coming weeks and begin to pare down my responsibilities and my priorities.
I am invested in my professional community, many of whom I now consider close friends, and I am invested in the future of education as we know it. I can’t detach myself from the world I dove into almost 2 years ago and I won’t.
However, I know that I don’t NEED to be online 24/7 and I know that those relationships will still be there as long as we are all dedicated to what we do day in and day out.
So for now I will focus on my relationships, my teaching and the co-op that myself and my colleagues have worked so hard to bring to this point. I will blog about my teaching, I will read my RSS feeds, I will travel to conferences and engage in dialogue, but you might not ‘see’ me around as much.